Anyone who has been here for a while knows I'm not big on making resolutions for each new year. 2021 is no different in that regard; however, after the train wreck that was 2020, I do want to take the occasion to try and get things back on track. I doubt it's any secret my mental health has not always been the best. I foolishly thought finally having an autism diagnosis as of late 2019 and the ability to self-accommodate would help resolve most of it. It certainly provided answers for the whys behind a few things, but it did nothing to correct what has been confirmed to be the chronic anxiety and depression I have experienced since at least the age of ten. As I was with autism, I masked and managed to be "high functioning" until I just wasn't able to do so anymore. I "regressed" and lost a lot of skills and executive functioning throughout the year until C. L. finally, after literal years of trying, convinced me to seek help. I was raised to be afraid of medicine that "screws with your brain." ADHD, antidepressants, and more were vilified and those who had need of them shamed whether they took them or not, so I was extremely reluctant to seek help let alone help that might come in the form of medicines. Even after being prescribed, I was skeptical and frightened. I spent the first few months convinced the only thing they were doing was making the occasional difficulty I experience with words worse. Then I forgot to take them for a week and realized the difference. Funny how some changes are subtle enough it takes artificially inducing a quick change to notice them. It took forgetting my SSRI for a week to realize how much of a difference it made. |
A. B. England is a novelist, all around geek, avid crafter, and the home-schooling mother of two.
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Work QueYekara Series Book 2 Prewriting/Outlining 20% The Icarus Project Rough Draft Progress 77384 / 75000 Myth & Science Collection Planning Stages 38% Supers Collection
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